Deeperoots

This blog was started one year ago out of the passion of two hearts to serve God and inspire others to do the same. It continued for a little while, but quickly fell by the wayside. Why? It is not that our passion is gone, I am really not sure what it was exactly, but you know, things get busy, especially for High school students, and we figure some things have to fall through the cracks.

So, this is the new year; exactly one year after the initial conversation that led to the creation of this blog. One year can hold so much, and there is a lot we think about on the eve of a new year. So much to imagine; where we will be next year, what our relationships will be like, what we will have accomplished. Especially for me (and all other high school seniors I presume) it can get pretty scary; I don’t know where exactly I will be going to college, how that will affect my relationships, or if where I will be is where God truly wants me. This can get very overwhelming and most nearly discouraging and frightening. I know you know the feeling, anxiety of the unknown fills our hearts and minds.

What we need to learn is that these feelings are pure selfishness and pride in a very clever disguise. It seems like the world wants us to be frightened and stressed; I know in my senior year all people want to ask me is where I will be next year, and what my future plans are, and that stress is also encouraged when taking SAT’s, ACT’s, SAT 2’s and whatever other college preparation tests schools want to throw at us. Living in the moment is moved to the backburner while our future is simmering and being planned and seasoned. This, I believe, is one of the prime reasons we are told to be in the world and not of it. Our anxiety about the future depletes our reliance on God.

Every new year I take some time to be silent and just listen to God, I usually go outside actually, and I want to share what God revealed to me this year, not more than an hour ago:

Wherever we are, wherever we are going, wherever we will be in our lives, in our relationships and in everything, doesn’t matter. The reson why it doesn’t matter is that simple two letter word: “we”. Why would “our lives” and “our futures” mean anything in the broad scope of eternity? We are a blip of sound in an endless loop of God’s music, (or to put it into generational context, one millisecond of one song in God’s infinite Gig iPod Shuffle). To make it short, we are nothing, and God is everything. Where “we” will be doesn’t matter at all. What we should ask when thinking of the future is where God will be. I don’t care where I will be, I only care where God will be; will He be glorified in my life? Will He be shared with my friends? Will He be shown in my actions and relationships? It’s not about us. And it’s kinda funny, because once I started to think about this, all my anxiety went away, and I truly found peace. Once I stopped my pride and selfishness and stopped thinking about me, that is when I felt God’s presence with me, and I knew everything would be alright. God has His plans for me, and I am a vessel to be filled, and that’s not scary, that’s exciting!

So, this is the new year…